Man On The Inside

January 1, 2009

On 11 June 2008, my wife Kolette and I found ourselves huddled around an iPhone in a hallway waiting for Dr. Heiner from the Reproductive Care Center to tell us whether or not our second in vitro procedure had been a success. Just like any other couple waiting for such news our hearts were in our throats and we could hardly breathe. For, unlike many other couples we had waited 16 years to finally have a chance to have a child.

I am a quadriplegic and have been since I was 15. We knew that the prospects of having children were greatly diminished because of my medical condition when we got married. But, what we didn’t know was that five years into marriage I would be involved in a serious car accident. What we never would have dreamed, was that I would be hospitalized for 13 months after the car accident and in and out of the hospital having surgery and therapy for the following 10 years. That’s 11 years altogether.

But there we were waiting. Waiting to find out if the waiting was over. You can imagine the excitement and joy we both felt when Dr. Heiner let us know that Kolette was pregnant. There are people in the world who will tell you the miracles don’t happen. That day proved otherwise, that day proved that miracles are not just remnants of the past but a piece and part of our lives today.

This has been the most rare and incredible event to occur in my life. In so many ways this miracle just should not be. But but that’s why they call them miracles. As a C5-C6 quadriplegic my chances to have children that are genetically mine barely exists at all.

In this blog you’ll find my hopes and dreams along with my doubts and fears. You’ll find laughter and tears. You’ll find things that are funny and things that are sad. You may find things that are little odd and sometimes confusing. You’ll find the ridiculous, the sublime and everything in between. Some of it will be experiences that happen, some will be the feelings of my heart, but it will all be real–my real thoughts and emotions as I begin this next chapter in my life.

From the early days of this pregnancy I have referred to my unborn son (Cole) as, “My man on the inside.” With that in mind, I decided to name the blog “Man On The Inside.” For, here you will not only read what happens as my son and I go through this journey together, but you’ll get a look into my innermost feelings and emotions as well. It will truly be a look inside; inside our relationship and inside me.

So, watch as Cole and I experience this new life together. I’m not exactly sure where this ride will take us, but if we both hold on I know it will be a journey we will never forget.


PS For those of you who enjoy the motivational stories and insights you find on The Champion Inside, don’t worry I’ll still be posting there as well. Just click here or go to www.jasonhall.com



  1. Amazing! To simply say “Thank You” for sharing this part of your life with us (your readers) is an understatement of vast proportions.

    Kindest Regards,


  2. Jason, what a totally cool thing to do for your son and yourself . I enjoy reading yours and Kollette’s blogs. I will definitely add this to my daily favorite. Looking forward to signing up for the class … I tend to be a little behind. You two have inspired me since CE and look forward to more. Peace and Happy New Year!

  3. There are no words to describe how much better my life has become from meeting you and Kolette in AZ and how much I have enjoyed your words. I know that you are going to be one great father because there is nothing you cannot do! God bless you, Kolette and little Cole!

  4. Having a baby is an incredible adventure for all parents, but your particular circumstances will make this even more of a blessing. Congratulations to you both and I look forward to hearing more about your experiences here, on Kolette’s blog, and in A Life Well Crafted!

  5. How awesome (and typically Jason) of you to share this with us. Wee Cole is a lucky little dude.
    (Please tell me you’re already shopping for a book deal for this idea…)

  6. Jason, I am so thrilled to be able to follow your journey with your son! You and Kolette help me to remember my days with my wonderful husband, James, who I lost in 2005. I wish he could have had the benefit of your insight when he was here. I feel it would have made his journey through paraplegia more understood. God Bless your journey through this wonderful life and I believe that you and Kolette can do anything you decide to do in life! Glad to have gotten to know you. Happy New Year!

  7. I am going to love reading your take on fatherhood!

  8. Jason,
    I love to read about you and Kollette’s greatest and latest journey- you will both be fantastic parents, it will be hard but nothing compared to what you both have accomplished and conquered, thanks for sharing something so personal with the rest of us. Happy New Year!!

  9. I know I’ve said this before, Jason, but I wanted to say again, HUGE congratulations on the upcoming arrival of Cole. I can’t think of two people would would be better parents to a lucky child than you and Kolette.

    Blessings in 2009!

  10. I have you bookmarked, and I am so looking forward to follow you on this journey.
    Happy New Year to you and your family.

  11. You are blessed. And the best is yet to come. I know that you and Kolette will be the best parents imaginable for little Cole. Congrats.

  12. Jason, Happy New Year to you and Kolette. Thanks for sharing this part of your life with us. You and Kolette are an inpsiration and you help me to be a better person and to realize what’s really important. I look forward to reading more about your journey.

  13. Jason – I’m excited for this blog. You have a way of putting in to words what is felt in your heart and I love it. Thanks for being so willing to share those thoughts with all of us. Can’t wait for Cole’s arrival.

  14. Right on!

    Man on the outside and inside.

  15. Jason what a great blog! We went to grade school, Jr. High, and High School together and through the years I’ve thought of you often. You have so made your life worth something. I am so happy and proud that you and your dear wife get to have a son. I can’t wait to read more. Congratulations. God Bless you.

    Tina Pelkey-McAdams

  16. Jason,
    I found your blog through Alpha Inventions, and I am so glad that I did. What a wonderful story about you and Kolette and now Cole. I wish you all of the best on this latest part of your journey, which will be filled with ups and downs of its own. But never give up, for what you will receive in the end is worth every second of it.

  17. You are going to be doing a super job Jason! this child is going to be so special to you both and of coarse to all of us that are connected to you.
    I am so happy for you both.
    I pray Kolette has a safe and Happy Delivery!
    Such a touching story like always!
    YIPPEE, it’s almost time, he is almost here.
    Take care

  18. Hey Jason, this is your cousin Andy. We recently found your (and Kolette’s) blogs, and wanted to say thank you for blogging about your adventures! We already love reading what your life is like as a future new father. We have a 5 month old, and are living in So. California for work. Feel free to check out our blog. Thanks again!

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